Vacancy
I just couldn't concentrate today. No matter what I did, the hands on the clock seemed to be in the exact same place for hours. I sat at my desk and wondered, what I could do to pass the time? I'm off work Thursday and Friday, so I don't really have any large projects on my plate. I have a report that's due at the end of the week but could not find the thoughts or words to finish it, today at least. It seemed as though I stared at it for a good part of the day and I am no closer to finishing it as I was this morning, or Yesterday for that matter. Don't get me wrong, it'll get finished. Today just wasn't my day.
I kind of felt like an episode of The Office where Jim and Pam are on the phone with each other and they are leaving voicemails at the same time talking about how today was just an "off" day. That pretty much sums up my current mood. Something about today was just off and it was exhausting trying to constantly keep my focus on one task at a time. The weirdest part of it? I don't really have a whole lot on my mind to begin with. Sure, I have a lot of things going on right now but it's not like my mind was straying to any particular situation, it just was vacant.
At the risk of sounding like an airheaded blonde, not only could I not concentrate today, I couldn't THINK. I would chalk this up to my recent fatigue, but I'm just not sure. I tried everything and nothing worked. I got up and walked around, I ate lunch somewhat early, I drank more water and even got into my chocolate stash because I read somewhere that that helped with concentration. But what helps if something is just "off"?
I can't put my finger on it, which is somewhat concerning. I know this week is when Tim goes back to school. Owen got his 6 month shots today (which means he wont be feeling well for the rest of the week) and will be switching babysitters starting Monday. I had a project I worked really hard on canned and the bank sent my house payment TWICE, sending our bank account into severe overdraft. Interesting enough, my mind hasn't been on any of these things, it's almost like it checked out.
I feel somewhat withdrawn, which can probably be contributed to stress or anxiety. Luckily, I'm going to see the Dr. on Thursday to get tested for anemia. So, at least I have something already lined up. I just don't feel myself today and it concerns me. As you can probably tell from this rambling blog, I don't really have a point. Just that I needed to get all this out.
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