At least it's only temporary...

So yesterday was full of a lot of firsts for Owen. It was his first day at the new baby sitter and also his first day full time. His regular babysitter, Lori, is 9 month pregnant and is due at the end of the month. So, she is taking a sort of “maternity leave” of sorts until the end of March. This puts Owen with a temporary babysitter for 8 weeks until Lori is back up and running. We called the babysitter that use to watch Tim’s little brother, Nick, and she agreed to take him on. No one is as good as Lori but Catherine is close and within our price range.


When I came back to work, the constant question was “How are you holding up with Owen in daycare?” I felt strange because it didn’t really bother me. Tim works second shift and had him until 1:00 and Lori only had to keep him from 1-5:30. But now that Tim is back in school and Owen is spending the entire day with someone else, I can finally understand the question. It’s very hard. It’s like it’s hitting me as a delayed response. I know this is a typical set up for most families and I was lucky to have such a good transition period but yesterday was still very difficult.

Maybe I’m just spoiled on Lori. She treats Owen like her own child and I can tell they have a bond. When I go to pick h im up, she answers the door with him and he always seems like he’s in a good mood. I’m not saying Catherine is a bad sitter, I just don’t think Owen clicks with her. Does that make since? When I picked him up from her house yesterday, he seemed very lathargic. Where Lori usually has him greet me at the door, Catherine already had him buckled in his car seat like she couldn’t wait to get him out of there. I’m sure that’s not the case but it just re-enforces my theory that they don’t connect.

I realize how “new age” I sound. But where some mothers judge situations by seeing that the practical needs are taken care of, I judge them by emotional needs. Not to say that I would leave him in a bad environment, we are just very in tune to one another. I can just feel what he wants.

I know it was only the first day and she does have a nice set up. They turned their garage into a bonus room and had little cubbies for all of the kids along with videos and tons of toys. Tim is going to take Owen’s pack and play over there tomorrow as we realized she never gave him any “floor time” yesterday due to their little yappy rat dog. That made me feel a lot better.

I’ll give her some more time. Perhaps things will improve with him and for me. I can just tell that we both already really miss Lori.